A short explanation

I thought I should shed a little light on why I chose ‘There would be no butterflies’ as my blog name!

This is blog is going to focus on The Change that is about to take place in my life ie The Menopause and hopefully more changes besides if my planning works out! I am not, expecting to become beautiful and fragile overnight, I’m more of a ‘Sturdy Bird’ (according to the Mr, and no, I haven’t forgiven him for that one) but I’d like to think my ‘change’ will be magnificent, why not aim high??

The butterfly bit seems more than appropriate, my Mum has always claimed that I’m like a butterfly, flitting about, moving quickly from one task to another, never quite settling and, due to this label a butterfly was my first tattoo so it feels like this saying was made for me!!

My week has involved lots of book buying, yoga, cookbooks and Lonely Planet guides (trip of a lifetime being planned with the Mr next year as he can retire…until he finishes I am not convinced he will) for South Africa (any suggestions more than welcome) and research into a natural menopause, a return to dog walking with the three hoons post – laparoscopy, yoga, yoga and a bit more yoga and planning, all ideas are in the early formation stage but it’s all incredibly excited…watch this space for more news)

Please feel free to leave me feedback…I’d love to hear from you 🙂

Until the next post

Love and Light

L xx

 

A Sunday well spent…

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Having been off on annual leave and then poorly for three weeks every day has felt like a Sunday! The lead up to my laparoscopy (last Friday) was NOT well spent, I have invested my time more wisely since then!

Being a nurse (Paediatric Intensive Care) is an incredible job but it has its downfalls as I’m sure my colleagues will agree! You (or any member of your family/friends) can never have any “normal” illness. I became more than a little obsessed with my ‘condition’ and, with by the power of Google, diagnosed myself and was preparing for the worst! This had its own, understandable, consequences! I became wrapped up in myself, could think of nothing else, slept a lot and quite honestly was becoming consumed by being unwell…this is not a good place to be!! And I realise it makes me appear to be a bit of a drama queen.

I can honestly say that I feel like a tonne weight has been lifted off my shoulders! Yes, I am facing surgery, yes I will rapidly embark on ‘The Change’ and yes I realise that this is no easy undertaking, but I have a future, one on which I now have a much clearer perspective! And I intend on all the days I have left off (until Friday) being well spent, planning for myself, my family and who knows what lies ahead! All I can say is that I’m strangely excited and feeling very positive about using my recuperation ‘Sundays’ to become a better me!

Love and Light

L xx

The start of things to come.

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(Image from @ChickenSoupSoul)

I’m not sure about anyone else but I am so excited to be re-launching my blogging activity! It’s been a while but with a new name and a different attitude I’m looking forward to what I can achieve and feeling positive about my writing!

I always thought hitting the big 4-0 was going to be life changing but I didn’t expect what happened at all. I was training for a half marathon, which was actually on the day of my 40th, when, six weeks before, I got injured and I can honestly say I have never been quite right since!

My body decided to give me a tough time of it, various non-specific, red herring ailments that, to cut a long story very short, have now all been attributed to the delightfully recurring Endometriosis. This ‘affliction’ has plagued me since I was 14 but now I’m going to have the last laugh as I’m cutting it off at its source!

So, ‘the big change’ is ahead of me, I’m preparing to go 0 to Menopause! ‘There would be no butterflies’ will catalogue my journey, examining how I prepare myself, my body, my family (so help them Lord) With the aim to entertain, inform and even possibly inspire anyone who takes the time to read it!

Thank you for taking the time

Love and Light

L xx